I broke down last week when I decided I just can't do what I'm doing anymore.My neurologist told me over and over my symptoms weren't MS. In fact when I was first "diagnosed" (2015 - MRIs showed brain leisions, spinal fluid showed protein bands, I'd been falling down a lot and was already in a wheelchair) he said he wasn't comfortable really calling it MS. I've had 3 surgeries directly related to MS since 2015 and when I told him I was having the surgeries and that the surgeon thought they were MS related, he blew off those too. Must be something else. I had 2 major attacks this summer. When I saw him for my regular August appointment he said "why didn't you come in? We could have given you steroids." He's NEVER told me there was any treatment available, just that I had to report symptoms to him and suck it up.I'm in PT for ankle surgery and went to a MS sepcialty, they've found spacicity in my leg, hand OT referred by my neurologist shows I'm down 75% on dexterity. The PT and OT said my symptoms are very obvious and looking at my med history, I've likely had active MS for 10 years.I got MS for Dummies and another book last week to learn more and was ready to throw and break things and cuss the ***** out. That's when I lost it.I put out messages to my case manager who handles the gov't money, my ILS who left last winter and was replaced with a nightmare, my primary care physician (who referred me to their care coordination team who refused me a few years ago), a few adult care homes, and others I can't think of right now.Honestly, it took me a while to remember MSS and when I tried to call, they were closed for the holiday. I plan on calling tomorrow. I wish there was someone I could speak with face to face since my cognitive problems are under attack right now and I am so emotional/anxious.I will give them a call.