The Invisible Illness

Sometimes, MS is one of those diseases that is nearly impossible to hide. Whether we walk with a gimp or we use a wheelchair, it’s hard to act like it isn’t there. On the hard days, all I hear is “are you alright?” “do you need assistance?” or “what’s wrong with you?” On the hard days, I just want to disappear. On the easy days, I am just like everyone else–my disease is invisible, and I am unstoppable. This is awesome, right? Maybe to me and the people who know me, but to the people completely outside of my circle, I am just seeking attention because I don’t have a “real” illness.

Each and every one of us works hard to function at our best–whether it be for a wedding or just walking down the block. We don’t want MS getting in the way. We train, we practice, and we gather up all of the courage we have to make that goal a reality and when it happens, it’s truly an amazing feeling! But what feeling is more powerful–the feeling of finally having what feels like an MS-free day, or the feeling of discouragement when someone accuses you of not really being sick?

I was at my local grocery store just the other week and while waiting in line to checkout, the older woman in front of my spotted my medical ID bracelet. She smiled and politely said, “I don’t want to seem rude, but I have multiple sclerosis and was just wondering what your bracelet represents?” I smiled back and told her I had the same; we got into a lovely conversation about the disease and the wonderful community that surrounds it. She let me know that grocery outing was the first time she left the house without her chair or cane, and she felt so good to show off her working legs! I’ve never identified with a stranger more in my life. When I was heading out to my vehicle, smiling about how the world can bring people together, I overheard a woman berating someone else not too far away. When I tuned into what they were saying, my stomach dropped; I could hear her saying things like “it is so RUDE to park in the handicap spot when you are NOT disabled!” and “how inconsiderate of a person do you have to be, I’m glad I spotted you WALKING to your car!” I immediately knew who the recipient of the accusations was–it was my stranger friend from inside.

As an MS warrior, I couldn’t just stand idly by and let this happen. I worked my way over to where they were standing and tapped the woman on the shoulder. To sum it up, I flashed my medical ID bracelet, did a little jig, and told that woman to mind her own business because she has NO idea what others have to face on the daily. It got her to leave, but I don’t think she learned a thing. I hugged my stranger friend and told her to keep working her lovely legs every single day.

Others won’t always see it, but you always know it’s there; no matter what anyone says to bring us down, we continue to wobble right back up and stay strong because no one knows your battle but you. MS can be an invisible illness, but the days that it is, we rejoice, and that emotion will always be triumph over discouragement.
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Catherine Weston

Catherine is a professional in the medical marketing industry from Long Island, NY. She aspires to show the world that MS doesn't hold her back. She was diagnosed in 2014 and has been striving to help others overcome their fears and limitations since (she also loves sheep!). Keep up with Catherine and her adventures in wellness through her blog!